truth takes time

you see, during my entire first year of school we focused upon support of each other. and then the support turned into expectations and lots of taking but no giving. i am all for supporting other students who are having problems... but not when it is taken for granted. these type of things can be deceiving for a long time, and many people do not see it in their desire to please everyone. however, there comes a time when you should see it for what it really is... and thus is why, truth takes time.


picture is from an episode of alias... where indeed, though unclear at the moment, the truth behind a situation is revealed eventually. my problem is that i cut off those people who were taking advantage of my helpfulness... i couldn't understand why i should work my tail off and they shouldn't have to.. only to be able to use the work i did.. such as all the work i did for our final in health assessment.. these people expected me to send them my notes.. didn't even bother working on it beforehand, just expected it. after that, i was finished. i was not going to do the work for several people.. i have my own self to worry about. i don't think i am being selfish, but how can people expect to pass nursing school riding on the coattails of others. well, truth be told.... several didn't pass into the second year, but there are a couple left in our program. but if you cannot bother to learn (not memorize!) the information, how can you expect to become a respected nurse and make responsible decisions and use any type of critical thinking? i just don't get it. anyhow, so this group that is left has banded together.. and made me the bad guy in the whole ordeal. because i refuse to let people walk all over me. because i had the courage to tell them that they really needed to do the work on their own and stop asking everyone else to do it for them. i am not trying to get the best grade in the class. i am trying to learn everything i can, including from my mistakes, so that i can pass the nclex and be a competent nurse. i don't have the time to play the silly mind games of classmates that are meant to drag a person down. i just don't have the time.

i know this is a downer post. nursing school is difficult enough without the interferences of teenage acting middle age women. i can only hope that there are others out there who may be going through the same dilemma. i just learned to say no. and it is telling when people stop talking to you or whatever because you decide not to carry them through anymore. i thought i had lost some good friends, but i guess they really aren't friends. the truth just took some time is all. ok.. i really must get to studying since we have another test next week. ciao!