28 May 2007

Finally!

The waiting has been.... painful, to say the least. Never did I imagine that I would have to wait 3 weeks for my eligibility letter from the board of nursing and my ATT. But they have arrived, and I have scheduled my test. phew.. makes me nervous just thinking about it! I am taking a review class offered by my place of employment.. well really they are paying for me to attend and it happens to be located at the facility. This will happen the week before I take the test. I really must crack down and study some more now! Playtime is oooovvveerr for me until then.


In the meantime... I decided to adopt this beautiful little baby :) Isn't he adorable? His name is TJ and he is a puppy through and through. He is a Papillon and I love him already, although my patience has been tried a time or two lol. He is full of energy and loves to chew! of course :)
Anyhow, not much else has been happening around here. Have to try on the uniforms that I ordered to make sure that they fit, do some laundry, cut the grass and finally.. go sign my papers at work. But first, I plan to spend the rest of the evening relaxing after being gone all weekend.

05 May 2007

It just Figures

Go to the youngest's baseball game last night, and the other team had to forfeit as the other team had a couple of members not show up. So, had a thought.... let's go see Spiderman! yeah!! (btw, i really wanna see the movie; first movie i have wanted to go see in a long time). It was sold out - of course! Today, had plans to watch the race... rained out. it's been raining all afternoon here, so expected it. decided to come home from my mother's house because it was... well raining, and we were going to watch the fireworks. So mom calls to tell me that they are setting off the fireworks anyhow?? in the drizzling rain??? see.. it just figures. Guess I am just gonna plan on staying in the house for the rest of the weekend.

BTW - passed my FINAL exam with a 92 and I am now officially have an Associate's Degree in Nursing... YAY me :)

27 April 2007

I rock @ shock

Just wanted to post some bragging rights here... :) we had our test on shock, code management, acute resp failure & ards this week and oh yeah.. got a 98!! i was flying high on that grade, especially after doing so bad on the previous test. Sure did make me feel great!

Final exam is next week... I just cannot believe that it is almost over, still. Planning on taking a little vacation over the next 2 weeks. Grades are due by May 10, so am hopefully expecting my ATT sometime in the week of May 15. I am scared to death of scheduling for the nclex, taking the nclex, failing the nclex. All i can do is prepare, prepare, prepare. Do my best. Pray to god for a passing score. All I can do.

I had meant to share more of my clinical stories this semester and some more of my work stories, but between taking 3 classes this semester and working, it was all i could do just to manage that, let alone the kids and their extracurricular activities. Hopefully, one of these days I will be able to put more of these stories together. Well, off on a studying/reviewing journey I go.

17 April 2007

58 down, 2 to go

I can't believe that there are only 2 more weeks left of my nursing classes and I AM DONE. Finished. Of course, this is assuming that I am going to pass the class :) After the horrid test we took today, I am so very, very thankful I had a great average with some cushion. Just need to rock the next test and the final exam and I will a-ok.

I hope that the college sends the transcripts soon to the board of nursing. I am really hoping to schedule my test in the beginning of june. I am scared to death of taking the nclex. completely. totally. scared. I guess this is normal to have this anxiety about it. I mean after all the work and time and life-changing events/priorities, I would just die if I don't pass. I honestly don't know what to think or do.

On another note, I interviewed at another local hospital last week for a position in ob and er. I felt that the interview went well, but truth be told, I really wanted a position in the icu, for which I am interviewing for this coming wednesday. the problem is that this hospital does not pay as well as the one I currently work, so it just makes the decision even harder. I guess I have to actually be offered the position first - duh - but in case that happens, i want to be prepared of what I am actually planning on doing. I do hate not knowing what I am planning on doing. I have just been too indecisive on this. Guess I will just see how things go and then make a decision from there. Gotta get my pros/cons list out right away though and formulate some questions to ask in the interview.

guess i really need to catch some zzzzz's. first tuesday in awhile that i don't have to get up before dawn and go to clinicals *grin*

02 April 2007

One step closer

tomorrow and wednesday will my LAST clinicals forever :) unless of course i continue on to pursue my BSN, which I am planning on doing soon in the future. but i am just so excited to be that much closer to finishing. Finally got the monster of a community assessment finished and turned in.. phew. hated that project with a passion! put in an application at another hospital.. want to keep my options open. not to mention that will be a greater opportunity for learning experiences at this other hospital if i can get the job :) keeping fingers crossed. the downside is that it will require some commuting, so they will have to offer a comparable package to the one in which i have already been offered.

i can't wait to have a normal life again. i have felt bound to textbooks and interventions and rationale for the past 2 years and now i just want some free time, me time, and most of all, put some real order back into this house, which has books and books and books all over, wherever i plan on working that night lol.

ok, enough rambling for now. i must go get some sleep. alarm comes early in the morning.

23 March 2007

Indecisions

I have been officially offered a job where I work. Not in the ICU like I had hoped, mostly because there aren't any open positions in there at the moment. The job is on the medical/telemetry floor, full time nights. My indecision comes from a potential desire to work somewhere else. I am just not sure if I am making the right decision, although it is possible that I am. At the other hospital where we do our clinicals, there are openings in the ICU, and I really enjoyed my experience in that unit as well as the way that hospital handles things a bit differently. I wonder do all students go through the same indecision as I am about where to work when they are finished, or do they know exactly where they want to work and there is really no other option for them.

We have 5 weeks left of school. 5 long weeks. But only 2 more weeks of clincal left :) I am so excited to be thisclose to being finished. Although the next 5 weeks is going to be full of tests, ATI tests mostly. I think we have at least 7 of them to take. I have mailed my application for licensure to the board of nursing and paid my nclex examination fee. Now just waiting for classes to be done, transcripts to be sent, and receiving my att so that I can schedule my exam. My nerves are shot... shot to hell. I have to finish writing up my part of this huge community assessment that we have had to do this semester (hate all aspects of this project, btw). Have to finish my portfolio for leadership, and study, study, study. In the meanwhile, my oldest son is on the JV baseball team at school, youth league baseball has started and I am only one person able to be in one place at one time. I can't feel more pulled in different directions than I do right now. Will it ever end? I know it will, but what will I do when it does?

I am sure that I will want to catch up on a couple years of lost sleep lol.

03 March 2007

We are the Champions!

All-Star basketball tournament was today for the 11-12 year old league. And our team came out victorious! Wooooot!! Nothing like some good old competitive basketball. Some of the kids took some hardknocks on our team (including my own son!) But we fought hard and was undefeated in the tourney. I am so proud of our team for keeping their heads up, hearts strong, and finishing out a great season. Congrats!

Now that basketball is over, it won't be long until baseball starts full blast. Team drafts are next weekend and practices will start soon after that. My oldest son, who is in the 8th grade, made the high school JV baseball team and their games start next week too. I tell you, it will take some time management skills to be able to balance all of this running around, seriously. Good thing I am learning a lot of that here in my last semester of school. Truthfully, I can't wait for baseball to start. I love baseball. And I love the Cardinals... here is hoping for another championship season for my Redbirds :)

23 February 2007

it's just a little different now...

well the nurse manager where i work has decided to fill the open positions in the ICU, so it seems as though I will most likely be starting out on the tele/med-surg unit. Actually, it is quite ok with me. I love working in the ICU, but I am not stupid to think that I shouldn't get good floor experience before moving into a specialized area. It is a bit of a relief because now I don't have to rush to take ACLS or anything like that before moving into there. :)

We got the papers to fill out our official application to sit for the nclex exam after graduation. Just having the papers and the book makes me nervous lol. Just thinking about filling it out makes me nervous. What if I make a mistake? I guess I will really have to review it before filling it out to make sure it is all right when I hand it in. Nervous.

Ahh well, am sure things will work out in the end as they are supposed to be. I won't spend a lot of time worrying about the little stuff because I have too many other things to do and other things to worry about, such as my test coming up on Monday and my other classes as well.

Ok off I go to review a bit before getting ready for work.

01 February 2007

weight a minute

Last week, I had a really great learning experience. This week, my assigned patient (Yes, we were supposed to have 2 this week. Unfortunately, census was down so we only had 1.) Anyhow, my assigned patient was admitted over the weekend with a change in mental status. Try writing that up for clinical prep – shoot there are so dang many things that contribute to a change in mental status. It is difficult to know which direction to effectively write up without knowing any further history. But I got it done. Arrive at the clinical hospital 0630, ready to go. Get report on my patient, learn some things important, like there was a right subclavian portacath. (immediately knew that she was most likely a cancer patient, since they tend to have these for chemo medications). She was s/p breast ca and a left radical mastectomy. She became seriously confused, was admitted, and had a raging UTI.

It’s no secret that a UTI will cause a confused presentation in the elderly. Much documentation has been done on that subject alone. Heck, Pope John Paul the III died from a UTI that progressed to sepsis. But this woman was only 50. Hmm.. ok, I thought. Also learn that she has a positive history for diabetes and hypertension. Pretty common these days, especially together. But I was not prepared for her. Not by any means. You see, I walk in to greet her, and find out she was the size of the hospital bed itself. Literally. They had ordered the special bed for her, but it had yet to come in. So in the meantime, she is packed into the regular bed on an air mattress. She couldn’t turn or move because there was no room. None. She is 530 lbs. And full of fluid.

She has widespread anasarca, which is now weeping and causing skin breakdown. Everywhere. Straie were puffy and full of fluid, looking like they would bust at any moment. Left lower leg is dusky and her toes are almost black. Her skin is literally sloughing off from the fluid overload. But that wasn’t even her main problem. Nope.
Although that in itself is pretty horrible to see, it must be even more horrible to experience.

Her main problem, however, was pancytopenia from the chemo. Her WBC count… normally 5-10, were 0.9. Hgb was 7.9 after a unit of prbc’s and procrit. Most seriously though… her platelets were 6, when normally 150-450. There was petechiae everywhere and purpura over her left leg as well. DIC was a formidable risk, and ever present in the mind. Sure she had open sores where her skin was tearing to let the excess fluid out. DIC, on the other hand, could be a potentially fatal complication. Yes, she had received some irradiated platelets, but still her numbers only went up to 12. She was on vitamin k. Her bleeding times were well out of whack.. as to be expected.

She was really a nice woman struck by cancer and now all of these complications. She was concerned that she was dying, and chose to ask me instead of her primary physician about her prognosis. (of course, I told her what I knew, that her blood counts were really low and her circulation was disrupted from her edema, but it was not my place for talking about a prognosis). Luckily, the second day, she had received her special bed and we were able to move her around in the bed to the best of our ability. Most of all, I felt sad for her situation. There was nothing as a nurse that I could do to really help her other than continue to try to keep her as comfortable as possible and monitor for any acute bleeding and pain. Couldn’t even dress the wounds properly as her skin was just too moist to have anything adhere to it. She was a completely different patient than I had last week, but still, extremely sick nonetheless. I guess that next week I will get my walkie-talkie :)

Toot Toot from the trainwreck

Each week, we are required to fill out a self-evaluation of our progress in lecture and in the clinical setting. We all stress out, hoping that our performance was satisfactory in our instructor's eyes. Since I had a difficult patient last week that I had felt I did pretty good with.. I gave myself all S (satisfactory) in all of the categories. I didn't make any mistakes, and did the best that I could with a dying patient (who passed over last weekend). We give this "tool" as well as a myriad of other paperwork for our clinical prep to our instructor to review and comment upon.

Now to toot my own horn :) I got my self-evaluation back with not 1, not 2, but 3 E's (for excellent). Yeah, I think I just grew about 3 inches lol. No one has ever mentioned getting an excellent in clinicals before, so maybe they were just afraid to say anything, like me. Some students can be so touchy when others do better, sometimes it is just easier to play things off. But to know that I did excellent in critical thinking, prioritizing care, and discussing scientfic rationales for treatment and planned medical care made my damn week.

Oh and I was sure to thank my ICU cohorts for all of their assistance and teaching so that I was able to competently care for that patient. They deserve huge kudos for contributing to my educational efforts :)